yeah seriously =/

i dont care who fukken read
imma just make sure yu fukkin listen
lemme tell yu wat i wanan fukkin do in the kitchen
grab a big butcher knife, trust me i am willing
imma gonna perform open heart sugery
on my own body so i'll be killin
its like that already
so i doctor will be billin
send me to a nut house so maybe id be chilling
think im fukkin crazy if yu want
i really dont give a fuk
oops i lied
tried to take yur adivice, i TRIED
but i didnt succed
wish yu cud see me bleed
so maybe for a second yu'd listen n wont leave
yu do it constantly
makin no repsonse to me
but yu know if fuks wit me inside
several nites i have cried
dont give yurself the credit
not really over yu
but maybe if yu heard me out
yu mite kno why i do
why the fuk do i cry?
to excrete all the pain
lilike yu vent and excrete sweat wenever yu play a game
or yu run on a track
and as a matter of fact
i cant even believe im remotely attracted to that
why the fukk do i talk to yu? cuz yu did it first
yu hit me up like yu wanted to talk
now it just hurts
cuz yu said a buncha bull shit bout yu havin an open ear
so i thot maybe i cud vent to yu
but yu find that shit weird
and yet i stayed up late nites to talk to yu
sumtimes we talked about nuthin like we seem to do
aint been talkin to long
but at times yu made em feel strong, sumwat confident in myself
but i guess i was wrong
cuz the truth is
idk if yu have emotion, yu seem so ruthless
yu told me shit about yu
i told yu shit about me
i partially told yu why i cant trust nobody
maybe now yu can see
but maybe yu wont cuz yu dont even read
n da prollem i got wit dat is yu dont support me
yu compliment me, say im smart, pretty n all that shit
but i dnt care how long we talk
yu wud neever know shit
about wat i think, wat i feel, wats inside this bitch
n i wass pissed wen yu agreed
yu sposed to be my friend... mr. thompson
holy shit, i almost let out the secret
of who im talkin bout, which isnt so hard to get
frum wat yu told me yu got a prollem sayin how yu feel
so if yu got a prollem wit me let me kno on the real
yu say im takin yu too seriously, i say wats the deal
i just thot i cud confide in yu
but my outer shell wont peel
n yu tellin me to sugar coat myself
is just creating a thicker wall
at this point idk wen the shit will ever fall
cuz yu'd rather be friends n find sumthin to say
to yunger gurls who small
no im not hating im just wondering is all
cuz yu seem to ignore me on aim, texts and tweets
thats why i barely hit yu up anymore Mr. T
cuz 2 weeks ago yu made me laugh n smile too
thot i was da only one yu called sweethart
now im feelin blue
but my face is so red
embarrassed from wat i just said
i just wanna disappear
refraining from saying i want to be dead
cuz truly i dont
and say it i wont
but never in my life have i felt so alone
maybe a few times b4
call me a depressing whore
a complaining little hoe
yu thinking "this bitch gotta go"
and "akira rhymes? this chick is wasting my time
why do i have to care, its not like she really affects my life.
and why shud she care wat i say, i dont really anyway,
im not that nice or smart, ot think twice"
well i have sum news for yu
person i used to call boo
i really think so highly of yu
cuz sorry for being honest
and for thinkin that yu so cool
but now all it seems is i feel like a fool
wastin my time, erybody's, n specifially yours
i just wish yu let down yur wall for once
and let me into the doors.