if you were me

hypothetically speaking.

what if you were me?

let's be honest.

we can't look in a crystal ball and see.

but please.

you wouldnt have lasted as long as I have.

in life. in school. 17 years.

you do the math.

that doesn't make you weak.

that makes you active.

the opposite of i.

for i am not passive.

but another brand of ignorance.

not often.

but often.

consumed by the masses.

how could such an entity survive beyond glasses?

but such is not an entity.

for that would be normal.

i am in parentheses.

i am informal.

if you were me. you wouldnt be.

you couldnt be.

the same.

as i. or yourself for that matter.

let's journey into the latter.

if you were me.

you would have given up.

you would have hung up.

you would have drugged up.

it's true.

but i am not you.

for i am clean.

but pain i sing.

no. i write.

for pain has no voice.

thoughts have no feeling.

emotions have no choice.

they are coerced.

made to happen.

not forced. but destined.

and yet. the pain hasnt lessened.

what pain?

i do not give off such an image.

do i?

you say i look like i am fine.

you lie.

what is in my heart.

is love for him to hold.

but my love.

is what he refuses.

but the choice will exclusively be there for him.

he can take it if he chooses.

but.

in the meantime.

my heart has bruises.

unsaved by he who never cruises.

so i cannot see him.

he does not see me.

i am standing right in front of him.

but i am still unseen.

if you were me.

you would have moved on.

said yes to everyone.

everything. that offered you a chance.

for life. to be its fullest.

for morality. to be achieved.

and intelligence as well.

for love. to have its strongest romance.

for peace. to come with a song.

and a dance.

but be silent.

silent as you need it to be.

of course you wouldnt hear a word.

if you were me.

you wouldnt see a thing.

or a being.

as none would see you.

i am me.

invisible as can be.

but what you dont see.

is not me.

you know i exist.

but you fail to recognize.

that my living persists.

and it will or will not.

whether you know how i feel.

but if you were me.

unlike me.

your wounds would heal.