Why??

cant stop the tears im drowning, never smilin, i be frowin, cuz never will i be happy, sumhow i always feel so crappy. somehow im always the stupid one, we its always them who playin dumb, how the fuk can i get bye, if our friendship is a lie. if yu just cant tell me wats inside, dont yu think it makes me wanna die, no hell no yu aint worth my life, although i let yu in my mind, so fuk wat yu say all imma do is cry, yu on my brain im never wet im dry, yes i just took it there with pride, although im writing this at an angry time. the facts are there, not rare, that yu seem to shut me down, yu did not care, i swear, seems like yu take the ass hole crown, cuz the difference between yu n them is that yu made me believe, that maybe just maybe sumone cud even be slightly attracted to me. but im not attractive, im just passive, let all you get to me with words, so now its passin, tired of askin, why yu seem to have the nerve. to tell me im this and im that, yu just wish my ass was fat, cuz yu know dats all yu care about, but i had a doubt, thought yu were different then the rest, youd think i learned the last time, im my past rhymes, from the last one i learned best. but again im just a dumb bitch, a naive yung chick, who liked got cught up in the one rich, just selfish, i couldnt tell this, cuz i let embelish, its not wellness, its my sickness, i have no health. so if i could do one thing, it wud be something, to prevent my heart from breaking, love i'll never be making, no more esteem of mine you'll be taking, just wish yu could tell me why its me yur not liking, then maybe soon, one day i'll stop crying.