<3 Heart Lost, Never to be Found <3

do i say how i feel, sink or swim, i keep askin myself, wat world am i living in? cuz wen push coems to shove, lemme think about it all, i try to stand up but all you do is let me fall. as soon as your around, yu seem to push me down, like yu ripped my heart out my chest, and threw it into the pound, let the dogs chew, it up saying "i dont give a fuk", then tossed it into the ocean, watch sharks jaws go into motion, and the whole damn time, yu only fed me lines, caught up in the game, left out to die, i kept getting pale, my heart was locked in jail, until yu seemsd to break the bars, now it's just raining hail. mangaged to find my heart and throw it on the road, get ran over by cars, pissed on by toads, warts on my love, seems like your pain broke the code, dont know how i let yu in, wen yu are in jackass mode. but it aint always like that, sumtimes yu find your way back, into the chaos of my mind, the calmness leaves yu trapped. does the same to me too, except i fall so much harder than yu, like i'd fall down on my knees and give yu all yu want me too, or any select few, your fukkin wit my mind like a boss, but wat i feel is so true. maybe its just a lie, thats why i wish my passion would die, then i wudnt be so stupid, or have to live this lie. im contradicting all my morals, to do as you please, and the more yu search for other routes, the harder it is to cease, i'll curse out a homegurl, call her a whore, but then let yu ride out until you tell me no more, i'll assassinate a mofo, if he try yu too much, but then i'd lay on my back, anywhere on my body yu can clutch. infatuation is a curse, something im unable to stop, even wenever im pissed, i still bounce on your jock. it's like yu or any other of yu seem to care how i am, just call me a bitch, dismiss my problems, or ignore them like yu dont give a damn. and yu probably dont and i shudnt anymore, but i do so i'll cry, n dont act like yu aint never did cuz that shit wud be a lie. tired of caring how all yall feel and even givin a shit about yu, wat wud yu do if yu never talked to me, how wud yu even make it thru?