God created Earth
God created man
man went on his own
created things with his hands
went down his own path
and expires to expand
so i thank God that
alive is what i am
a blessing
to live, to experience life
but human emotions
sumtimes make yu die
i feel like im dying
tho everyday i live
never meant to hurt anyone
yet support they dont give
im lacking something
attention
said it before
this is my 50th post
choose one
prolly even said
wanted to shoot sumone
wit a gun
but umm
the thing is
im only as good
as the things i do
the things i support
the things i let happen
and the things that are me
try to respect myself
i dont smoke i dont drink
but i let ppl i care about
take all advantage of me
let my friends
and boys
play me for a fool
dont matter how it happens
it still makes me a fool
foolish asia i am
cuz he said i was cute
but if i wasnt talkin bout sex
he prolly put me on mute
opposite wit the other
he'd prolly want me to stop
cuz a freak in me
is somthin he thinks im not
but what does a girl do
to stimulate yu
i dont know many ways
but i can name a few
im sure we all can
so i wont waste the time
let's talk about the boys
who seem to think im so fine
the ones that dont believe
the words that i speak
think im so sexy
but im just unique
if they saw me in person
prolly they would flee
run away becuz im not
that hot
i look shot
sumtimes
my hair
my eyesbrows
recedining hairline
yeah real talk i do look like yu think
the long hair real
its all me
but its under the shell
that makes me look like a geek
and i care to much to even let yu go
i care to much
that's why i cant show
or let yu know
i dont feel yu like that
it's a no
but any girl wud be lucky
to have yu as her boo
just no real attraction
i can get from yu
just know yur an angel
and i hope yu see
that you're brother
prolly lookin down
and steered you toward me
now let's talk about my friends
let's make amends
before any drama starts
dont wanna hear it again
i know i play around
i know im like a clown
but i try to explain it
i feel like they dont hear a sound
i have always
ALWAYS dun my best
to be there for you
i aint never really lied
trust me its the truth
accept maybe to one of yu
but i had to
its wat yu do in life
wen things feels uncomfortable
why wud i purposely try to piss yu off?
why wud i purposely try to ignore yu?
why wud i not talk to yu only
i'd do it to everyone else
unles syu do sumthin to me
then maybe we'll see
but honeswtly
i never had so much trouble before
teenage gurls are so moody
no wonder i wanan become a whore
we fight for attention
and did i forget to mention
sum seem to wanan get mad for no reason
as if yu created treason
most dont wanna give yu a chance
and talk to quik
wudnt the wolrd be better
if we all just got sum dick
God created men
and they contain that sin
but i guess its up to us
for that sin not to commit
but lust
it seems as complicated as trust
dont sit here n tell me wat yu want
dont tell me yu wanna fuk
dont tel me yu want me to ride
cuz then i say it back
then later yu tell me yu blockin
or yu dont see me like that?
and im supposed to be confident
but not rely on other ppl to boost it
its hard to do that wen yu all make
me feel so stupid
"noo duhhh...uhh noo..use yur head..
stop actin slow...yur so gorgeous...
keep me interested...bitch go to bed...
pull down your pants..just do it...
are you serious...why yu so obsessed wit trey..,
why yu a big fan of chris...go to your room...
first your brother now you?...
shut up...
shut up...
shut up...
there's nothing you can do...
i trust you...i like talkin to yu...
i think your cool...say it again..babes...
sweethart...i like you too...
what the hell are you doing?...
aint liek we in a relationship...
you cant do it rite...fuk it up n i hurt you...
no that's what i wanna do...
you so sexy!...
mami you're so beautiful...
WAH WAH WOMP "
all you plz shut the fuk up!
can you for once let me think
and do something i want
i need a chance to shine
not askin but just once
stop doubting me
yall get a chance
plz let me breathe
im tired of moping around
internally i cry myself to sleep
i have images of falling out of a tree
tired of being the apple
all the way at the top
the one dudes pass over
cuz it's a challenge
climbing is a job
and niggas are pretty lazy
so they chill near da bottom
chill wit dem big ass chicks
wit dey big ass lips
or dey big ass tits
who feel up on they dick
on they meat
on they body
that's they dfefinition of a hottie
this is why i dont think i'll get anywhere
nowhere wit nobody
but for once
imma just
TRY to let it slide
stop predicitng wat will happen
and just let life be my guide
although my family is killing me
keep drillin me
like im just an extra person here
the one with the smart genes
but the other does whatever they want
guess i shud worry bout myself
even tho im not well
know i wont go to hell
cuz i got ppl who care
just idk when they are there
and God created man
God created me
Got created my future
my upcoming destiny
so im gonna let it happen
someday i shall see
who really is this resurrection
who really is me.